role modeling

I consider myself lucky, since I was a little girl my dad already taught me in picking out a role model and learn from them. He taught me to watch him, watch my mom, observe and learn the things I want myself to turn into. Early on I already made a decision that I didn't want to be like the naggy woman my mom was (trust me, she's not that naggy anymore), and didn't want to drive like a daredevil like my dad (guess that's why even when I speed up it's not daring at all).

The observing didn't stop when I became a teenager, it didn't stop as I entered adulthood either. Up to this day I still have this process, where in the back of my mind I make mental notes of the people I interact with, and I remind myself not turning into this person or that person.

It's completely different from copying. I believe copycats aware that they're imitating a role model, but the one I talk about, some people (either they realize it or not) change, evolve to someone they were not, or even worse, turning into someone they despised before. Pretty scary.

I've seen such thing happen in the organization. I've seen a colleague woman who acted as she was the royal highness and ordering people to do this and that. I was so pissed listening to her I just scolded her instantly that she was not the royal highness and these people were not her slaves. Boy did she shock. What else should I do? She was relatively new but already had that attitude??

The trend is spreading. Or shall we call it "the cancer spreads". Not trying to be too negative, but it's pretty s**tty to see that the attitude people picking up are the negative ones. Authoritative tones, self centered decisions.. Good thing I don't see much of back stabbing. Or maybe I'm not aware of?

As usual, I would rather not get into details. It's not a public consumption, and most of it are still cooking. So, things can change in a matter of minutes.

I would be at most happy if people can be aware of it and start copying kind and generous actions. Guess that's how things are, people are more aware of the negatives they are numb of the good things.

Pretty d*mn scary.

where did april go?

I completely avoided updating this all month of April. I was even thinking about completely ignore this blog thing. Bored. Tired.

Then a friend specially buzzed me asking why I haven't updated this. Well, it's just nice to find out that someone is still reading this, curiously finding out what's happening with me. Thanks, San!!

Quick update then.

Too many happenings in the office. Just like you eat raspberry, for some people it can be annoying. Most of them are quite stressful incidents, but I can't just absorb everything at once. I'll be swamped, I'm afraid I can't function.

So a co-worker (who was hired early this year as additional assistant. I think I wrote about her earlier, can't rememer what I wrote though) decided that she had enough and quit. Boss asked her to stay until they go off to their yearly US trip.

Another close colleague, who is the boss' wife's assistant decided she also had enough. Yikes!! Well, of course it doesn't happen just overnight. That's why I said too many happenings. A lot of things involved, and they triggered her to finally take this bold action. This Monday was supposed to be her final day to make her decision.

Really can't imagine how it will be. Handling one is almost around the clock job, handling two?? God help me...

As I would say.. it's never boring!! duh!

Bad news again, shall we? My younger sis had malaria (again). She's better now, but she noticed she's been coughing for sometime and finally after we talked about it she decided to have torax x-ray. Result? Positive TB. Poor sis. I just wish she can take care of herself better. She's a doctor, fergodsake.. The Wounded Healer, she would call herself.

My boss just got back from 3 weeks of safari in Africa. Darn, I let 3 weeks passed like that. If I knew they would be unreachable I would have taken my leave! Interesting they gave me this sheet of fabric which I have no idea what to do with it...